Perhaps four years ago, one of my friends, a very close family friend has cornered me and told me that she’s dreamt of something that concerns me. She was hesitant to say it fearing I might get upset because it was not flattering. She felt she had to tell me. I did not believe her. I listened but shrugged it off. No one really wants to hear something so sad and difficult to happen to themselves. I ignored her. I felt a little bitter, because “why would she say that?” Back then, I believed that she was concerned borderline narcissistic because I felt that letting me know about it doesn’t help me at all, because what’s the point? Has she helped me in a way? What could I possibly get from knowing that but anxiety? At that time, I felt she wanted people to acknowledge her gift of prophecy. I didn’t engage deeper.
Apart from some futuristic events like how she dreamt of mine, she also dreams oftentimes about evil spirit in people. She’d see that there’s a demon on top of you or a demon that you’ve been dragging along that she believes to be prophetic. The way she explains it is like, if she sees a demon, let’s say either Beelzebub or Jezebel dwelling upon someone she dreamt about, it’s likely that their actions and decisions were influenced by them or worse, they’ve been unknowingly possessed by them.
It could sound silly, right? Because we know God holds our future! YES! But come to think of it, that’s a true gift that God can give to someone. In the book of 1 Corinthians 14: 1, it says, “Pursue love, and earnestly desire the spiritual gifts, especially that you may prophesy while Romans 12:6, says, “We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us. If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in accordance with your faith” — Gift of Prophecy does exist in the Bible and that gift is from God, incidentally, my friend is a faithful servant and she seem to desire her gift very much.
Some people may find her gift funny, silly, crazy and some believed it according to their favor like if she dreamt about the person they despise walking with Jezebel, they are likely to believe her instantly. People are people.
I was uncertain whether to believe her or not, I know that she is good and of good heart, I do believe that she believes those dreams were prophetic. I began realizing that I did not completely ignore her prophecy concerning me. I was upset. I was unhappy and I got burdened. I was bitter about that and somehow, affected my relationship with her. Why so? Because all she did was deliver the message, she didn’t tell me how it happens and how to avoid it, she only told me that it happens. How am I supposed to make do with that information? There’s nothing to be done but to ignore or wallow on any future problems.
She told me with futuristic pity.
Her dream about me four years back is actually happening to me right now, to the very dot. Four years in the making, who would have known! Apparently, she did! I haven’t seen her in a long time since the lockdown and since I still don’t go out much, we never had a chance to meet up and eventually, calls and messages dwindled to almost none. I want to tell her about how she has actually prophesied about it but that would entail revealing information about my life that I am not ready to reveal. I only talk about these things with my younger sister.
I am so conflicted.
As I end this weird post, I would like to share this very comforting hymn by James Rowe. I believe this says it all.