You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
You make me happy when skies are gray
You’ll never know dear, how much I love you
Please don’t take my sunshine away – This song was declared to be one of the state songs of Louisiana.
The first photo is of the three of us some time recently & the second one was in 2013! I miss the feeling of being able to carry Brook on my lap. Now, I’d die to even attempt doing that.
Yesterday, Brook has done something naughty ending up breaking something I specifically told him not to break. From the time I was buying that from the store, I knew that the moment he’s sees that particular thing, it will only take some time before he asks me if he can use it. And he did, of course. I told him to be careful and I have demonstrated twice the way to use it. It’s an office tool, quite user friendly. He shrieked in excitement,
“Yes! I was able to do it!”
He called me and showed me and it was indeed a success until few minutes later, maybe 5 if I am being generous. He forced the tape and of course, it broke. It was cheap. But I bought it for a purpose. It’s one of the things I need for our homeschooling. His father saw us arguing and of course, he talked to him. His words were always scarier than mine. It’s the fact that I have predicted that he’d break it & that made me a little mad. I mean, can’t he just prove me wrong, for once?
Brook is a big boy now. He doesn’t cry when being scolded. He has this rough expression like he was challenging us with such a hardcore stare. I don’t know why he’s become like that. He knew he’d get into more trouble by doing that, and yet he still does it.
Later that evening: Ok, Brook has some eczema break outs on the soles of his feet these days. In this regard, either me or my husband would give him a hot foot bath so his eczema would soften before we apply the prescribed cream. Whenever they do that, I always go to the bathroom and we sing the song, ‘Party in the Elevator’.
To my disappointment when I entered, they were very quiet and nobody sang with me. Apparently, he was still in trouble because of what happened during the class. I feel so bad because I had to be so loud! My husband could not have heard it if I wasn’t so loud earlier.
After resting, we managed to do our own things. I was watching Felicity, Brook was playing Roblox and my husband was in the kitchen brewing something probably.
I called Brooklyn since he just took a shower and I hugged him and sang You are my sunshine. Then I felt that he was silently crying because I can feel the tears on my arm.
I asked him why he was crying and he explained that he didn’t sing Party in the Elevator with me in the bathroom because he was scared that I still hate him. I told him that I cannot ever hate him; I can be pissed or slightly mad at him but not hate. He cried even more and I felt so bad for making him feel that way.
I can’t believe how big he’s become and yet, he is still as sweet as a baby. He indeed is my sunshine and my only sunshine!
Incidentally, Julianne of 3YellowDaisies has tagged me for a Sunshine Blogger Award! I super appreciate her always remembering me. Not only is she thoughtful, she is an amazing writer too. Check out her wonderful stories, they’re totally worth your time!
What is the main Purpose of my blog: Before I have re-branded my blog. I have carefully decided whether I will continue with my initial plan to focus on homeschooling or to be a lifestyle blog focusing on mommyhood. The term momshie became popular in the Philippines. It is a whimsical way to refer to mommies (adapted from the Filipino gay lingo). Sometimes, a more informal address that can be useful according to situation.
What’s an ideal day for me? is a well-rested one having good amount of sleep with poreless skin. Something about being able to do things for myself and sharing good food with family. I have a similar blog about this here.
What motivates me? I am motivated by LOVE. The things I do, I do it because I want Brook to be comfortable and happy – because I love him. But doing all this without the guidance from the Lord is useless. I see to it that God is glorified in everything that I do and every choices that I make. I know that I may stumble (all the time) and I tend to fall down, but the Lord will uphold me with His hands.
How do I deal with STRESS? By praying. These days, I am super stressed because of the pressing problem that we have but I wake up in the middle of the night and pray on it. I pray to the Lord to take care of us and guide us. I am praying that He touches the hands of whomever can help us in the situation we’re in because we cannot do it without divine intervention… plus, I also pray for Him to put me back to sleep. I am so stressed that my face is full of pores but I praise God that despite all this, He still gives me the comfort I need.
What makes me happy? Seeing my family happy makes me happy. Specifically whenever my husband does not have TN attacks and Brook is healthy and my parents, sisters and my niece are fine — I couldn’t ask for more!
My opinion on bucket list. I haven’t thought of this until now. For real, I don’t have a bucket list but whenever I am asked what’s the top destination on my travel bucket list, I always say, ‘Switzerland’ — I never really have a list of things to-do before I die because what if I die young & what if it’s a sudden death? I feel that’s unfair because I haven’t gotten a lot of time to fulfill my list and I would end up with lots of unchecked boxes. I am conflicted. I don’t want to have a bucket list. But I will live my life according to how God commissioned me to be and I will live joyfully according to His will. I think, I will be satisfied and will lack nothing. Psalm 23.
Do I want to make lots of money doing a job I hate or make less for something I love? I cannot ever make money from something I hate. I will end up paying for my mistakes i.e. when I was crazily assigned to collect money from patients (way outside my JD). I hate money collection, recording and balancing. I hate asking money from the sick. I ended up paying for a patient’s 3 dialysis sessions because I was too embarrassed to guilt trip people into paying a billion-dollar company 1200 USD just because the patient’s insurance expired (I know that they have to pay for the service but collecting money from the poor and sick is not my cup of tea). But if you ask me if I would do something I don’t quite enjoy, but do not necessarily hate, YES. I am willing to choose that over happiness. I can be happy after work. I just can’t be miserable.
If I’ve got unlimited money, what business would I venture? Hmmm, if money won’t be an issue, I don’t think I’d need to run a business. Perhaps I will start a school free for all. The school will cater the children’s needs from food to education and shelter if need be. I have been praying to be rich so I can make things happen. But frankly, we can make things happen despite our meager income. Click me.
If I can live anywhere in the world where would I live? I would choose to live in Canada. Does PM Justin Trudeau read blogs? I so want to move to Canada because of how my Canadian relatives and friends rave about how peaceful and relaxed their lives are. I love how they have achieved a well-balanced life; being modern and being so zen at the same time. I love how they are family centered and are big on togetherness. Plus, healthcare is better than most countries that give PR.
A movie that you can watch over and over? By the time we’re in Canada (thanks to PM Trudeau), for sure, we wouldn’t immediately have connectivity; we’re likely going to be stuck with our old movie files for a month but thankfully, I can watch Bring it On: All or Nothing; this is the one starring Hayden Panettiere and Solange. I like it because it was focusing on dance and it was more intense than the other Bring It Ons.
Name a fictional character whom you’d love to be roommates with? The character whom I’d love to be roommates with is Felicity. My friends would mock me about our similarities having all my Felicity-type problems and issues — the as if “I was carrying the weight of the world on my shoulder” type. I know my friends from college were at one point exhausted by my incessant whining about problems that were not necessarily ‘real’ (for them). I am totally curious to see how they see me as a friend. I would love to be Felicity’s friend to see if I am really that insufferable, hahaha!
Thanks for the wonderful questions. I would like to invite everyone to answer my questions as well (if you’re up to it!) especially, if you haven’t yet. You can see the questions here: Click ME
This has gotten long huh?!! But this new WordPress editor is killing me. I don’t know how to deal and navigate through it.
And oh! It’s apparently 37 degrees C in Riyadh today and it’s supposed to be cloudy (with a chance of meatballs?) I hope it doesn’t rain though.
“Glory in his holy name; let the hearts of those who seek the LORD rejoice.” – 1 Chronicles 16:10